Pills

I hate that I have to take a pill to function “normally” it really peeves me. It makes me feel extremely defective unfortunately if I don’t take one then of course, I get extremely down. I fall into this depression and there’s nothing at all I want to do but mope around, cry and plan the end.

I had a bad case of food poisoning a little over a week ago and I haven’t taken my anti-depressants since I fell sick with the food poisoning, yes I know, how very bad of me though since I haven’t been taking anything I noticed that I hadn’t felt dizzy or gotten any of the headaches that I had come to expect to be a normal thing with me. I finally realise now that the dizziness and headaches (that I’ve had for the past 2 months) have been a side effect of my taking my stupid anti-depressants. 

Upon visiting my doctor about the dizziness and headaches his solution was to just wait a while longer and for the meantime he’ll increase my dosage from 175mg to 250mg of Effexor (seeing as my mood still wasn’t fantastic).

So instead of taking one massive, anti-depressant capsule, my daily routine of pill popping now includes:

Having to try and swallow two massive capsules that taste rather revolting and that I now know make me dizzy and give me headaches. On top of that I have to take at least 2 Nurofen tablets to stop my headaches and a Nausetil tablet to stop my dizziness not to mention that from time to time I still have to take a sleeping pill to correct my sleeping patterns as I still have my consistent companion, insomnia.

I don’t know maybe it doesn’t seem that bad to some people but for me I just can’t help but feel as though all these pills that I’m taking that are ‘helping’ me actually aren’t all that good for me, like perhaps I’m just taking too many pills =/